Kids-- Angels or Devils.

Everyone I know tell me that I should go for another baby, considering that I have two boys. So maybe the next one will be a girl ( and maybe NOT!!), because everyone should have a girl,right? WRONG!!!! Two are enough!! Boys or Girls. Well sometimes they are so sweet that I almost...almost think maybe another one... but then very quickly disaster strikes and well..... !!!! You'd think two small boys... one is 6 and the other is 2... well what can they really do? Don't get me wrong, I do love them with all my heart. They are my life!! But sometimes I do wish I could get some time to myself. Just to sit and relax... not have to do anything ...not even have to think anything.Now my elder one is is Grade 1 and the 2 year old is in playschool. He just started playschool. So its kind of crazy. He's not enjoying it too much after 2 years solely with his life-giver. I waited 2 years because he is diary allergic. So I did not want him to be exposed to all sorts of diet choices. So I took 2 years off from work. But I was going crazy after the first year. I just was itching to get back to work. I am not one of the mothers who can spend hours and hours playing with their little ones ( how do they do it,I wonder..Hats off to them) I can spend 3/4 hours playing with them and then I need a break. After 2 years, I was almost running back to work . But then my son started his tantrums in school and the guilt started coming on. Was'nt I being selfish to my baby? Its not about me once I become a parent, right? Its always the children, right? Maybe I should wait another year. But I talked to my family and they would all say, he will outgrow this stage. Give him time. Things will get better. So now I am waiting for things to get better in playschool. I don't know that what I am doing is right. But maybe my family is right. Its just a matter of time. With my elder son, it was easy. He loved playschool. When I would go to take him back home, he would look at me like why am I there so early?!! So I enjoyed my work too. But for now....... I'm playing the waiting game.